My Dear Sister,
Come to think of it,
I am glad, I did not meet you, the day before you disappeared.
I would rather hold
onto the other thousands of memories we had, I would smilingly accept the juice
that your kids spat on my favorite abaya, I would lovingly remember my tiny
girl running around happily with her MnM’s and asking me for it, if I didn’t get
her any…. I would rather remember that, than having to understand what made you
decide to take a leap of faith, over an issue, I still can’t wrap my head
around.
This is plainly my
opinion. I have known you for years. We were the kind of ‘cousins for life’ who
could talk for hours on end, and would still have tonnes of stories left to
share. What do I do now, when I feel like there are things that you need to
know? How do you compensate my longing to chit chat over henna/ just chit chat
over anything in general….
Sigh! I am not angry
at anybody or anything. I am deeply upset at how easily the trust got broken. I
am way too far in the trust circle if you ask me. Starting with your parents,
sisters, friends, cousins- Oh Wait! - There I am, that’s not even far in
the trust cycle. I guess you
do have some reason due to which you never really expressed any thing.
Now, let me share my
thoughts. I still like to believe that you were your old innocent self, who fell
into a skillfully created web (which is totally understandable). The alternative
would be, you taking that choice of leaving everything behind for a cause… a
cause that doesn’t make any sense to me. How can anything be more important
than the sense of peace your parents feel? How can you not have seen that it is
not the destination, but the path that you take that is important? Why would
you throw away the beautiful life that you build, for a faith which has been
mutilated like never before (and you are more than educated enough to figure
that out.)
I do not know what
happened. I do not blame you either. Sometimes situations makes you take
terrible decisions. To you, what I say might not make any sense, but I stand by
it. Allow me to ask you this:
You, being one of
the smartest among us, you being the one who knocked some sense into your sister-
what drastic realization transformed your thoughts??? Who was, that powerful,
to influence you???
To the other person
who influenced you: Do you believe you were right in molding somebody in the
wrong direction? What kind of ill feeling do you have towards the world that
your sense of justification has been totally washed off?
I hope this letter
reaches you somehow. I hope you try to understand what my masked language is
speaking. I hope you are safe and happy wherever you are. I also hope your
family has the strength to get through this enormous test.
To whoever that
created this false web, this is what my advice is:
·
The God that you preach about, knows exactly what is going on.
·
The families that you flip, their wounds will hunt you till the
end of time.
·
The wrongs that you do might just wipe out the good you may have
done in between.
To you my dear
sister, I say this:
Faith should be in
one’s heart, not on your sleeve. If you were wronged, May God Almighty provide
you with the strength, courage and conscience to deal with it. I love you, we
all do, and we will pray for guidance, for the entire human race: to follow the
right path, and stay away from the commercialization of it.
Some very precious
people have been hurt. Some very lovely babies are being missed. There’s lot
more that is left to communicate, but for the first
time, I feel, that, my pen is not mightier than the shield you have on.
Loads of love and
prayers,
